I am having a hard time being the one to implement structure in my life, especially when I have no real obligations as of right now. Finding ways to spend my days that are productive can be challenging as well as boring. I am not someone who likes being by themselves, and I would much rather be stimulated by people and places than by books and homey tasks. Although I do love curling up with a new book, and I am not above a good hard scrubbing of the kitchen floor, I just get so tired of being all by myself. So, naturally I go on the Internet and find new admittedly awful t.v. shows to get addicted to, I edit and update my blogs and various profiles, but then I find that my eyes are glossy, and I can't tolerate natural light and I wonder, is this healthy? No, it isn't. I hate that I ever started watching television again, and I despise even more the fact that it is so readily available these days. I don't even own a t.v. monitor and I am somehow obsessed with at least three different current prime-time shows. I feel like it is so hard to get away from too, because like all things I am addicted to, it does have a place in my life, it just shouldn't be such a big place. You know? Sometimes I think watching a movie or a new episode of the office is a perfectly fine thing to do, I just don't want it to consume my days. It is something that is best in small doses, I think this is called moderation. Something I am so not good at. I would love to be able to consume all things that are bad for me in moderation, but you know, I just don't think that this is very possible for someone with such an addictive personality.
While writing this entry, I can't help but think of the new Lipstick Jungle episode that aired yesterday. I am most addicted to this show, and it is hardest for me to disengage from. Truth be told, I will most definitely watch this episode, but will try to get all my chores done first. I am going to run downtown go to the bank, and possibly return a piece of jewelry to Macy's.
Denise always says, work before play.
I say, lets just play.
